It's just a little crush.

When i was young, I had a serious crush (as serious as a 9 year old crush could get) on Hideaki Takizawa. I got really crazy over Japanese things like suddenly I liked listening to J-Rock and J-Pop, and I started learning Japanese language. By the age of 9, I carried a heavy determination in my heart and mind to live in Japan and see Hideaki Takizawa. In fact I still believe till now that I would cry if I ever set foot in Japan. I was so crazy of him that I even wanted to change my name to Japanese ones. I didn't listen much to Malay songs, instead my table was full of J-lyrics. Nevertheless, I got greedy and started to develop more crushes on Japanese artist like Hyde, Ken Hirai, and Matsumoto Jun.

Later on, a massive wave of Harry Potter craze came washing on gullible young hearts like mine. By the age of 13, I had a serious crush on Tom Felton. I promised to my best friend that I would cry buckets if I ever set foot on London (My geography was really lousy at that time, I thought that London means UK + Scotland. Like I said, I was 13.) I was unbelievably fanatic over Harry Potter and still am. For 4 years, my birthday gifts from my parents were Harry Potter newly published books. They would make a reservation on the book few days prior the release date and I would line up in front of MPH to get the new Harry Potter books. On the premier date of every new Harry Potter movies, my relatives and I would camped outside the main entrance of Jusco Bukit Raja to buy the movie tickets(at that time, we didn't know how to do online booking). Years later after the end of that whirlwind of one-sided romance, I had moved on to other crushes. However, I got the opportunity to travel to London. Despite what I promised, I didn't cry buckets. Not even a single tear fell down when I passed through Daniel Radcliffe's apartment along River Thames.

The point that i'm making here is, crushes are temporary. I get bored easily. When I like something or someone, I would really go dead crazy about it or him, till it reach a point where I would just stop. Whenever I listened to a song that I like, I would play it on repeat non-stop till few days later, I stopped playing that song. It would take me months or maybe years later till I get a fleeting urge of wanting to hear that song again.

I am waiting for the moment when someone would never bore or tire me. I really hope that somewhere, someone like that exists and holds my permanent interest.